This dolphin Thing, It’s Quite Beautiful

 (c) Bahamas girl  (not my pic!)

                     (c) Bahamasgirl (not my pic!)

“The truth shall set you free.” -John 8:32b

This… being a dolphin… I never thought of it as anything beautiful. I thought of it as something weird or awkward or something that I was making up. I  thought it was just an influence of something outside me and not of my true nature. It seemed to surreal to be true, this story that I’m dolphin girl. I’d click and squeak spontaneously when angry or sad, choosing to express myself that way over a curse word or a more human sounding whine or scoff. People would laugh at me or not take me seriously sometimes when I talked about my feelings. I began to read the intentions of others before putting myself out there, and then I found it was a cold, dark world for a dolphin soul in a human body.

I kept things to myself, until by the end of middle school I stopped believing in the very light inside of me. I gave in to the voices of others, even those who were good-natured, consoling that there isn’t such a thing as one kind of soul, and that all are one, and though I understand what they mean I know that somehow my soul chooses to identify itself this way. Individuality is part of the whole. Even with such a strong intuition I shut myself down, and locked those habits, behaviors and feelings  away in the tiny,dusty attic of my subconscious.

I still fight with these voices to this day. Despite the effort to think more ‘rationally’, I  still feel the rush on my skin on that cold dark land, on that cove that I spent my last breath in… and I would miss it very much…  but i never knew what I was missing. not the cove, but the days when the sun would creep us against the clouds and whisper its sweet songs to me. I would miss the days that the seagulls would call over head giving the welcome of a new day. I would miss the rush of the tide as we ride it with glee, I would miss all those things. there is nothing greater that brought me more joy here, than the sea…..

doubt flutters in my mind again. Could this be really true? do I feel this way…this surreal?

“How could you think you would be making this up?” a heavenly voice from above, a fleeting timber of a voice, inaudiable but clear, speaks.  “how could we possibly lie to you?” you were not borne of the land but of the water. The soul speaks to us in a tongue that we cannot deny. Once this voice is so deep. it quivers in our spirit, crushing every doubt ever thought possible. It is you, that must decide whether to listen to this voice.  My guide Diana, chimes in. “When you do its waters run deep my dear, they run deep… deeper than you can imagine. those ripping tides, those rolling waters? How could you, possibly deny them? How, when your soul yearns for these elements, and you must be strong, to not to shudder the fear of denial but accept, that this is you, and that you are not making this up, and not let the voices of others to speak over your voice. Your true voice has power, more power than anyone can ever imagine deary. Just listen, and understand , that your voice no matter how dark or how deep this situation goes, we will always, be with you, healing every past doubt or fear that has ever come across you,  Then Mary one of my other close guides adds, “As we do this in spirit, our consciousness grows. deeper and deeper, until it is our greatest self that we can imagine emerges into the light, and touches you with magnificent grace. Don’t deny it my dear. Know that it is you who must decide, decide to trust…..”

I will Love myself,  despite the awkwardness that I feel when looking in the mirror. this awkward, skinny girl, this odd illusion of skin, flesh and bones…… is merely a cocoon, a beautiful cocoon for my  beautiful dolphin spirit. Yes, My beautiful dolphin spirit. It’s time for me to acknowledge myself beauty I am. The beauty that is everlasting, for the truth of you is unchangeable.  Time to feel these feelings as something that is beautiful  part of me and not as something shameful, something someone will think I am crazy or weird for; but Something unique, beautiful and irreplaceable.

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Soul Love- Quote of the day :)

“If you love a soul, you will love that soul forever, If you love a personality and what you believe about them or what they give to you, you will never be satisfied in that relationship. Life is but a blink of the eye, but the soul is eternal. Love is not a presence without understanding. Love is a presence of awareness that is always present. Love is not something you give or take. Love is. LOVE IS. __Soul, I AM”

Breeding Captive Dolphins = Erasing Potential Happiness


“How can you miss something you don’t remember?”  is the arguement pro-caps present to those opposed to captive breeding. Raising dolphins in captivity is like erasing their memories so they can’t compare a life in the wild; Mind controlling them to think that the captive life is the best there is and that living to entertain humans is all they can be.


Captivity hurts….. captivity is like not knowing where you truly came from or who you really are. The spirit resides in the sea but you are not aware of it… a perfect example of this is my twin flame Jessica ;D  (by the way a Twin flame is the phenomenon where your soul inhabits two bodies) Although we’re the same soul she doesn’t consciously feel the same connection to dolphins as I do. You can say that she is an example of a ‘captive dolphin’. She doesn’t remember the ecstasy of feeling the expanse of the beautiful rippling tides, magnificent rolling waters… the beautiful moonlit sky across an expanse of ocean that makes you feel you are floating in space… She can walk by the sea and not feel nostalgia because she cannot miss something she cannot remember. This is why captive borns are “happy” in captivity. So like the captives, She has never felt any happiness greater than her current life can give her…which I know, sharing her essence, is nothing close to what the human experience is so far.

If I ask her, or if she is reading this, she may say that she doesn’t miss the sea and has no interest, or no opinion whatsoever. Because those potential memories of bliss are locked away in the darkness of the forgotten. Yet, it is present in the very heart of the one she calls her best friend and “Other Self”… Now tell me… Is it right to take away the potential happiness of a dolphin (that is healthy and capable to live a free life in the sea of course) just for YOURS?




For This???


In this photo taken on Aug. 15, 2010, Shiro, a Risso's dolphin, jumps in front of tourists in a small ocean cove in Taiji, Wakayama Prefecture in western Japan. The ancient village has a long and complex relationship with the dolphin. In early September, the waters of this same cove will turn blood red, as it becomes a holding pen for the annual dolphin hunts. (AP Photo/Koji Sasahara)

In this photo taken on Aug. 15, 2010, Shiro, a Risso’s dolphin, jumps in front of tourists in a small ocean cove in Taiji, Wakayama Prefecture in western Japan. The ancient village has a long and complex relationship with the dolphin. In early September, the waters of this same cove will turn blood red, as it becomes a holding pen for the annual dolphin hunts. (AP Photo/Koji Sasahara)

High Vibrational Hand Soap!?

So my mom bought this 100% naturally derived glycerin hand soap with no artificial ingredients, and although my mom has bought many other hand soaps but this one stood out from the rest. The second i washed my hands with it I suddenly felt my spirits lifted considerably, awkwardly enough for me to question the new soap. I questioned another aloe vera hand soap before  the same way, but that one didn’t lift my energy like this one did. I rinsed it and looked at my hands. my aura around that area glowed! and my skin was noticeably clear :O and I thought that darkness was a tan D:

Sodium Laurel sulfate or Sodium Laureth Sulfate, two ingredients known in shampoos that actually dry out hair that is sensitive  like mine, is not present in this soap.  Although it isn’t actually shampoo I swear i’m about to try it on my hair just for ships and giggles xD

looks like God is one step ahead of me! xD i never expected  help to come in HAND SOAP though xD

but It totally makes sense, especially for people that do reiki to have a soap like this xD in fact i was planning to incorporate hand healing for her session xD  that a natural hand soap can  reeally clear bad energy away! it must have been the vegetable glycerin… or the aloe vera… or both !!

I was just planning to start healing aura readings for my twin soul, and I was  wondering if I would be ready for such a reading cause I’m not done recovering from my own illnesses. but it does make sense for me to help heal Jessi… after all she is me xD and that kinda is my second body LOL

Oh yeah, and heres the Hand soap, anyone sensitive enough should feel the difference !! 😀

I just wanted to put this story up cause its a reminder that God’s help comes in so many unexpected ways ❤

“When it feels like you’re alone  When it feels like you’re lost Look up to the sky  And I will take you home”  - Zach Affolter

Love and Light !!! 😀

A Peaceful Sense of Purpose


After looking photos of the Taiji dolphin slaughter again today I couldn’t believe the sense of peace I felt.  Peace because I now understand that it is my soul purpose to stop that slaughter… knowing was one thing, but understanding, and feeling confident about it is another. So I looked at the pictures with Love and peace. this will stop. when there is a will there is a way. I am slowly starting to forgive…..I never felt this way before, and it’s a very, very good sign that I am healing.

And also knowing that my Twin soul Jessi is supporting me on this, listening to me, makes me feel even more confident and peaceful…




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Quote of the Day – July 14 , 2015

“A very long time ago humans used to think the world was flat. Someone else who thought the world was round was considered crazy. You’re that “crazy person”. Just because people think you are crazy, doesn’t mean you are wrong.”

— Diana Spencer, Princess of Wales

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